Monday, May 29, 2017

Writing blogs.


 It is a challenge.  Who am I writing for?  Sometimes it is for myself.  It helps me solidify my ideas, think them through. I haven't solidified my ideas here recently. Maybe it's because they have become less of a priority and are still in flux. I can't show you how many unpublished posts I have.  I do not think it's important that others know what changes have occurred. 

Sometimes I think I am writing for other people.  This one is a challenge because I don't know who reads these ramblings of mine.  But I try it anyway, or I don't.  I let it slide.  Is it an exercise in futility? Who knows.

I received an email a few weeks ago asking me to return to writing my anonymous posts for their website.  I finally wrote another brief article for them. I write anonymously there because the topic is painful and close to me and those I love and know.  Others have found them helpful, so I write.

Does this sound like a diary entry?  Maybe it is.  Maybe that is all I have today.

Saturday, May 13, 2017

Highlight to read.


I never knew love could hurt so much. Every breath hurts. I wish I could pretend it doesn't hurt.

Every night I cry myself to sleep. The mornings are the hardest when I have to wake up for reality. 

How can I forget him?
How can I forget his kiss? His warm embrace?
How can I forget how close we used to be?
How can I forget his laugh? His sense of humour?
How can I forget he said he would never leave me? That we were meant for each other?

I will never forget the days we once had.

Ps: I disabled the text selection highlighting. 
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Draft: February 2016

Thursday, April 20, 2017

Take note.


I have my own reasons for doing/saying things. 
Don't judge my choices when you don't even know the reasons. 

Wednesday, April 12, 2017

Frail soul.


Over the past year, with the help of many people here, I thought I grew stronger from the emotional hell I put myself in.

I did some sharing and cried my heart out, got some kick ass advice, and I thought it managed to build me into a stronger person for myself.

I thought that I was able to get through the fact that I lost someone that I loved dearly, that I was able to get past the heartache.

And after getting kicked in the ass a few times by certain individuals. I thought I'd managed to rebuild my self esteem and live like I was supposed to live.

But this morning I realise I was wrong, completely dead wrong.

I'm still as weak and helpless as I was a year and a half ago.

:(

Draft: January 2016

Saturday, March 4, 2017

Today's The Day.


My life is changing every second
I like who I've become.
The hardships and hell
have gone over well
and now I see the sun.
tomorrow's an hour.
A minute.
A second away.
And nothing holds a light to
the beauty of today.
Today's the day.
I'm my own woman
with no one else around.
I now hold my head high
and look at the birds
no longer at the ground.
My heart isn't healed
but it's on it's way
and with happiness
and joy I can say
that finally, 
FINALLY
today's the day.

Poem by Apple.

Tuesday, February 21, 2017

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Monday, February 20, 2017

Friends.


That friend you can talk about anything to. 

We all had our pasts, and some habits die hard. Habits and pasts you are ashamed of. 

To have someone you can be vulnerable to, who won't judge when you trip and fall. 

Someone who knows all these taboos about you and stays the same.

I have that someone. No, in fact, more than one!

How blessed!

Sunday, January 22, 2017

Renungan Hari Minggu.

Bacaan 1: Yesaya 8:23b - 9:3
Mazmur: 27:1,4,13-14; R:1a
Bacaan 2: 1 Korintus 1:10 - 13,17
Bacaan Injil: Matius 4:12-17

Ketika mendengar bahawa Yohanes Pembaptis telah ditangkap, Yesus mendengar, bahawa Yohanes telah ditangkap, menyingkirlah Ia ke Galilea. Ia meninggalkan Nazaret dan diam di Kapernaum, di tepi danau, di daerah Zebulon dan Naftali, supaya genaplah firman yang disampaikan oleh nabi Yesaya: "Tanah Zebulon dan tanah Naftali, jalan ke laut, daerah seberang sungai Yordan, Galilea, wilayah bangsa-bangsa lain, -bangsa yang diam dalam kegelapan telah melihat Terang yang besar dan bagi mereka yang diam di negeri yang dinaungi maut, telah terbit Terang." Sejak waktu itulah Yesus memberitakan: "Bertobatlah, sebab Kerajaan Surga sudah dekat!" Yesus pun berkeliling di seluruh Galilea; Ia mengajar dalam rumah-rumah ibadat dan memberitakan Injil Kerajaan Allah serta melenyapkan segala penyakit dan kelemahan di antara bangsa itu.



Korban yang diberikan Yesus kepada Gereja-Nya dan umat-Nya adalah korban sekali, dan bukan berkali-kali. Kita selalu ditanya, 'Mengapa orang Katolik meletakkan corpus di salib?'.Ini bukan untuk mengulang perngorbanan, tetapi untuk mengenangkan akan Tuhan kita. Setiap kali melihat Salib, semoga kita mengingat jasa Yesus Kristus yang telah menyelamatkan kita berkat penderitaan, wafat, dan kebangkitan-Nya.

Kristus datang bukan untuk membawa perpecahan meskipun ia mengalami peristiwa tragis dalam hidup sampai wafat-Nya. Sekarang kita menikmati buah penebusan-Nya. Semoga kita sedar untuk terus mewartakan dan menjalankan apa yang diajarkan-Nya. Berjuang menjadi perpanjangan tangan Tuhan setiap hari. Itulah ertinya iman kepada Yesus. Pertaubatan dari cara hidup yang lama dan penuh dosa adalah satu bentuk kesaksian yang nyata. Mulailah dari hari ini.

Ya Tuhan, bantulah aku menyampaikan khabar baik kepada keluarga dan teman-temanku. Semoga aku mulai dengan pertaubatanku yang mahu menjadi sahabat dan tanda kebaikan-Mu bagi mereka. Rahmat Roh Kudus memampukan aku untuk itu. Amen.
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